i remember the day i found you dead on the floor

no life in your eyes, no breathing, no more

i didn't scream, i didn't cry, i didn't say a single thing

because my love for you had long turned apathy

you were a light that was fading away

i had watched you die for a hundred days

i tried to show you color but my world was gray

you were stuck and i was sick

and we were sinking in the mud

when i tried to pull you out

i found i couldn’t see above

and i'm sorry

and i love you

but sometimes i worry

that the knife was in my hands